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Oct 8 Frank said I should try to write more than a couple times a month- I quess he’s right ! Fall is definately in the air- it’s still warm during the days, but when the sun goes down it gets COOL! I’m not complaining- in fact last night I spent time digging out the “cooler clothes”, I Love fall and winter- just need to dress a little bit more. Slept in real late this AM all the way til 11:00 -I needed the healing time both spiritualy and physically. But since I didn’t call it quits and get out of bath until after 12:00 last night- I don’t feel too guilty- and got alot of work done this afternoon. I am still trying to spend massage time in the tub, under my arms as they still ache. And it is comforting with the hot water! I would rather be in bed cuddling, but our sleep patterns are still a few hours off, maybe now with the time changing soon- and it getting cooler- I will be able to shut down earlier... I realize I haven’t been taking all my potions in the amounts- or with the consistency that is needed- I AM trying- but I seem to let work and obligations take over my brain- and before I know it - time is gone. That is the biggest disadvantage to not answering to anyone but one’s self... I Really have to make an effort to stay more organized on time, as I am getting tired, too rapidly- and want to crash early - so like tonight am forcing my self to work. But that’s ok today- because we had Kayla, and the boys(Daddy and Unc Jay) here for dinner- and it was fun! I love her little chipmunk/belly laugh!! And we continued the fun while taking a bath. Boy, that little one grows alot of potatoes in her ears, and carrots between her toes, and broccoli under her arms. It is late again- and time for a tubby- yes I ache- but still feel we have it in the run...With the new bombing we did in Afganistan- and all that will come in the next months,years to come- I still feel I am here for a reason- if for nothing more to put on bandaids- or pass out info- so the cancer doesn’t scare me anymore- and my spirit chose to be here for SOME reason- just wish it would clue me in. Actually , when I am on my downtimes(late sleeps) I manage to center quite well and know all will be well, no matter what comes to pass. |