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Hello! Nov. 9, 2000 We still don’t have an elected president, and the People at Reno Diagnostic got me in today- Thursday as opposed to 2-3 weeks, so I had mammo today. The lump( on my left armpit, near breast) I found ,was nothing but tendons, but after several tests, they pinpointed lump and clusters in my left breast. I knew there was trouble when after the first 4 rays, they made me have 8 more-( normal procedure is notification by mail in 4-10 days) and THOSE HURT... and I had seen the rays from the first 4. But when this very cold man ( the Dr. of Radiology) walked in and rattled for 20 minutes about biopsies and chances of catching it in time, etc ....and the prefered method is not the needle biopsy- but the incisive biopsy”that way they can get it all” ......Basically- they are small, too small for the screener at Planned Parenthood to have found by hand- and Very close to the body in the glands.. ....And SO do I understand the types of Biopsies? Yes sir (I was sitting clutching a robe around my cold upper half while he and the technican glared down at me.) I asked what if I chose not to go the conventional route, what would be some other physical symtoms. .. “ Can’t tell you that without a biopsy”. I’m allergic to all antibiotics, what can I expect if I don’t get a biopsy? Can’t tell without a biopsy, and we recommend you get the incisive biopsy so we can get it all while we’re there”. Thanks Dr. (you didn’t even have the courtesy of shaking my hand when you came in. I’ll forgive you for not being able to say my name right! I guess you just consider me another woman- with no brains , that has to follow your word?) Ask technician how to get results - she said it would be sent to my Dr. and he would recommend biopsy- told her I was with Women’s Health Connection through PP. She said to get a Dr. Go back to room to dress , screw the bra- it hurts anyway. The Ladies at the desk are SO nice. And Even try to be kind. It was snowing, “Drive safely”!! Frank met me at gate, we got car into garage, and then inside I told him how it went. we’ve both had our hairs up about how fast things have progressed... Called and left message on Ken’s machine That I wouldn’t be at massage class tonight- too much personal stuff- but would be at the next(last) one next week. So unless anyone asks how my mammo went, I am not volunteering any info. Nicci , Chris and Cindy know about the results from my physical exam on Tues. I only told Nicci as I wanted to ease her mind about cancer in her Aunt MayAnne and G-mother Schofield- amd in my paternal Aunt and G-mother- facts show it Only comes down the maternal side- and up til Tuesday- nobody from my female side had anything- then today- HELLO FREDA!!!! Frank & I talked alot, mainly me crying for him and the kids and the G-Girls and My FRUSTRATIONS at the WHOLE situation. I HATE it with me- I feel frustrated or blocked in AND I CRY??!! NEVER except when I’m hurt or mad! But even though I KNOW He was scared and worried, he reaassured me that no matter what, he would be here for me! Something like this is harder on the other people around you. I can deal with what I have to, I’m here for some reason- but already I am seeing the hurt and frustrations of my loved ones.. how to deal with that-? how to help them? Need to start getting info on healing methods beyond what we have been tinkering with on the net. will do some research and calling around.... |