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11/13/00 It’s foggy and Another busy day at work- I’m glad business is good- but somedays just don’t want to deal with it. I called a few “alternative” Doctors. Their prices are far from “alternative” . I am glad they are there for the folks that can afford them, but I’m not about to sell my soul to save my life. If I sold EVERYTHING Frank and I own- including our undies, we wouldn’t be able to come up with a month’s worth of their treatments. Rosemary came in and I told her what was going on. She has sensed something is up- and asks. She is a sweet lady, and am glad to have her around. Cindy called from work and said, "Yes! I filled out my F;orida ballot right!!!!" and asked what was up. ( I sent her an E -mail last night and asked her either to call me or let me know when to call her- but started it with reference to the Florida Ballot situation). Customers kept coming in- we tried a couple of times and I told her I would call her later- what time was good for her- we agreed in a couple hours. After work I scooted down to Burton’s Wellness Center to get started on fixing this problem. We had started seeing them a couple months ago for a dermatitis problem Frank had had. It was almost totally under control until I found my lump, then he broke out again- from the elbow down. John told me to get started on the Flax seed immediately, and also discussed the Flor*Essense, Maxi-antioxidants and Maritake Mushroom-D-Factor. He gave me a tape on the Progesterone and paperwork on DIM and the above. I explained we had to wait a few days til payday, then we could get started. He said to listen to the John Lee tape and he’d see me as soon as I could get in. He asked me how Frank was doing, and I told him almost all cleared until I found the lump, and now He’s broken from the elbow down again, and that I Knew it was stress. He agreed- then I told him that Frank was busy with our new crusade- the WebPage- and he was interested and agreed. Give a man something to do to take his mind off it. On my way home I was feeling SO positive and was thinking about Frank’s rash....He always has told me how hard it was to watch June in labor with Jason- he felt so helpless- he couldn’t do anything- and a man’s reaction is to FIX IT!!! It dawned on me- He can’t fix it - but he can Help- when I got home I saw the beautiful work he was starting on our page and it was for sure- A man needs to FIXIT- and what do they use to fixit? Their hands, and HIS were getting better! One more worry easing... Whew!! OK!! Good stuff going! And I feel confident in Mr. Burton- he was a pharmacist , that has switched to natural and nutrional healing. Plus I just get a Good Feeling about him. Well, on a roll, and have to talk to Cindy and Nicci. The hardest of all. Cindy first- her hours are earlier than Nic’s. It was hard to tell her, and wanted to be with her to tell her, to reassure her all would be ok. I KNOW it! And we are going to help lots of people along the way. But when it’s your sis, and your friendship has had it’s ebbs and swells, due to growing and learning- and trying to protect each other from information we should have shared... And your love and caring has ALWAYS been there, the only way to do it was to spit it out. The whole enchilada.. The feelings, the results, the rush from the medical personel , etc,etc,etc. After about 2 hours and her bravely taking the first part ,as I bravely told her- and us both crying the last part , she told me she trusted my faith and how could she not believe it was going to be ok, because I believe it and it is so strong! I love my CS So much and am So happy for her. She has her Stevie, she deserves some happiness and a hubby who loves her for all her glorious and loving attributes. And this Sis ain’t gona bail on her- after all- I ain’t 2/3rds the way there yet. While I was talking to Cindy and as I call Nicci, I have been cutting the bones out of all my beautiful bras. I have been annoyed for several months and We keep trying to find some that don’t hurt me on the left side. It’s hard enough to find all cotton bras that support. Thought it was the bras or job ... ignorance is bliss? Ok - Call Nicci- how in the hell do you tell your daughter, and the mother of 2 of your granddaughters this? It went harder than with Cindy! After all, Cindy is older and more exposed . Nicci listened intellectually, asked questions , and then it sunk in and she tried Real hard not to cry. But we both did as I reassured her it will be ok, we ARE going to beat it! And we cried about my G-girls, and Nicci’s fears for me and her future. And in the end, her response was similar to Cindy’s . She made me promise that if things didn’t work out, I would let her know when things got tough so she could come be with me. I promised- but there will BE NO need!!! And to prove their faith in me and the powers that be....... I WILL have a clean mammo in a year- just to prove that faith and our Mother Nature is a good thing |