1-19-01
It has been a busy week and a few long days. Work is long, trying to cover for our new
girl’s schedule- and things are now popping up more-(dentist appts., etc.- she can only
work 2 days a week as it is- can’t they schedule this other stuff elsewise?).
I cannot continue
to cover the hours and neither can Rose or Rick!
I guess maybe I’m a bit testy because of
giving up my “blankie”. I haven’t fully accomplished that but am down to just a couple of
smokes a day. Am doing deep breathing and nicorrette gum otherwise. I know every
smoke I take cuts my chances on beating the cancer, but it is hard! Not so much the
nicotine, .... just giving up my buddy, through thick and thin! But even though I am
positive about my chances against the cancer, I know /I Must give up the smokes to make it
REALLY work. But damn, this is too much to deal with , and my brain is short-circuiting.
But if someone(or me) doesn’t shoot me first- This too will pass.
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